Sideways

tilting sideways
at first I thought…it was me
but you’d fallen asleep
in the kitchen, leaning forward into the tea
and so, uncertain
I called for mom, sisters held to me

lights, lights everywhere,
flashing on the walls
suddenly
paramedics coming down the halls

weeks pass, and I hear
you’d suffered for so long
just you and Binsford
after grandma passed on
that you finally gave up…
didn’t want to be alone.